An Unexpected Encounter with Socialized Medicine

By Daren Anderson

Standing at a hospital checkout desk, credit card in hand, can be nerve-wracking. How much will it cost? Is my credit limit sufficient? Will there be more bills later when they calculate the radiologist’s fees or blood tests? Will I need to dip into a home equity line of credit to cover the costs?

But wait — we are in Italy. Maybe healthcare is different here.

We waited in line at the cashier’s desk for about 10 seconds before being called up. A few keystrokes later, we had a bill for $177, paid for with our Visa, and we were on our way.

What, do you suppose, do you get for $177 in an Italian hospital? A glass of orange juice? A CBC?

In Italy, $177 was the total charge for an ambulance ride on a backboard, an emergency room assessment, an X-ray of the lumbar spine, a head CT, an electrocardiogram, and an orthopedic telehealth consultation from the University Hospital in the nearby city of Perugia.

All of these services were provided for Esterina after she slipped on wet pavement in Assisi and fell hard on her sacrum. The fall itself was painful, but the shock, pain, and stress of the event caused her to faint, prompting an ambulance trip to the ER.

You might wonder whether you get what you pay for. Joking aside, in the US this entire event would likely have cost thousands of dollars, some covered by insurance and some not. Would the care have been thousands of dollars better?

The entire experience lasted about four hours. The ambulance took roughly 20 minutes to reach us on streets designed for mules, not advanced life support vehicles. Upon arrival in the ER, Esterina spent about 15 minutes on a stretcher in a hallway before being wheeled into an assessment room where an ER physician sat at a desk asking questions while a nurse relayed them and performed a cursory exam. An ECG was quickly performed and found to be normal. An X-ray of the lumbar spine was ordered. Although we were all certain she had not hit her head, a CT scan was ordered nonetheless for a fall associated with loss of consciousness.

After the consultation, we were back out in the hallway. We waited about 30 minutes for the radiology room to free up, watching several more seriously injured patients appropriately move ahead of us for imaging. Finally, lumbar films were taken, followed shortly afterward by the CT, and once again we returned to the hallway.

We spent much of the next two hours there, staring at a few bad pieces of art on the walls and watching patients, some bleeding, some moaning, some stoic, come and go. Eventually we learned that the CT was normal, but the spine film showed a “cortical irregularity” in the S3-S4 region. In other words, there may have been a small sacral fracture, though the findings were equivocal.

The ER physician was not comfortable discharging her without an orthopedic consultation. The orthopedist was in the operating room, and no one knew when he or she would be available. There was even discussion of transferring her to a larger hospital.

This was a dark moment for both of us.

I try very hard not to “play doctor” when family members are involved. Judgment can be clouded by emotion, and I have not actively practiced clinical medicine in over 10 years. Still, the concern about transfer felt disproportionate to her clinical condition. She had no neurologic findings, minimal pain, and no clear fracture. Rest, movement as tolerated, and some ibuprofen seemed the likely outcome.

Fortunately, soon afterward an orderly came out and explained that the orthopedist had reviewed the films remotely, spoken with the ER physician, and cleared her for discharge. Ibuprofen as needed. Nothing further.

Ten minutes later we were at the cashier, Visa in hand, and a few minutes after that we were on our way back to our hotel.

Once the trauma, fear, and emotion of the event settled, we had ample time to reflect on our healthcare experience in Italy and to compare it with our own system back home. All in all, the right things were done. The ECG and CT scan made sense. The diagnosis was appropriate, and she was triaged correctly from the start. Getting an orthopedic consultation for a marginal finding may have been somewhat excessive, but it happened quickly enough that the reassurance was probably worthwhile.

In Italy, we got the basics, without the frills. The hospital has no shareholders and earns no profit from our visit or anyone else’s. There was no prior authorization process and no insurance intermediary standing between patient and physician. The radiologist, ER doctor, and orthopedist earn far less than their American counterparts. Yet we still received the essential components of appropriate emergency care, and the outcome was entirely appropriate.

So what might more money have bought?

Better artwork on the walls, certainly. Better bedside manner as well. The physician never actually spoke directly with us, and the nurses and orderlies, while professional, were fairly scarce and often brusque when relaying information. More money might have purchased a more thorough exam. I was somewhat surprised that Esterina was never placed in a hospital gown or given a complete physical examination. She remained in her street clothes and sneakers the entire time — admittedly making it easier to get up and leave.

More money also might have bought a blanket. Throughout the experience Esterina was cold. I covered her with both of our coats along with a thin hospital sheet that I had to request. Perhaps more money would have bought us a curtained exam room like those seen on The Pitt instead of a dingy hallway.

It also could have purchased better facilities and groundskeeping. Many of the hospitals we have seen in Italy, including this one, feel austere and physically underinvested, more functional than welcoming. Tall grass and weeds surround institutional-looking concrete buildings that appear to receive little attention beyond what is necessary to keep them operational.

The biggest thing we did not receive, however, was kindness or reassurance. Everyone was professional, but there was very little warmth. No smiles. No expressions of concern. No one paid much attention to Esterina’s non-life-threatening symptoms or comfort. She was nauseated, dizzy, cold and scared. No one asked. No one checked.

Still, it is important to remember that we were technically uninsured in Italy, even though we carry international coverage that will reimburse us for the charges. An Italian citizen likely would not have paid anything at all for the same care. In the United States, an uninsured person experiencing a similar event could easily face thousands of dollars in bills unless they were fortunate enough to qualify for charity care, Medicaid, or other assistance programs.

How much are all these “extras” worth? Are they worth having 5–20% of the population uninsured? Are they worth a system that can leave people financially devastated by illness or accident? Are they worth the inequities that still define so much of American healthcare?

Personally, I do not believe we should have to choose between humane affordability and humane care. Italian healthcare could use more warmth, comfort, and investment. American healthcare could use far less profiteering and inequity.

Most surprising of all, however, we have not received a single call or card from an injury attorney. And I have not seen a single billboard advertising one anywhere in Umbria.

Back to travel, back to Italian food, and back to health!

Exterior view of a circular building with the sign 'SUB DISTRETTO CIRCO' on the facade, surrounded by trees and grass under a clear blue sky.

A dingy hospital in South Italy (not the one we were in in Assisi)

On Wiggle Room

TThis week I attended a work conference on business fundamentals in healthcare. A slide came up about two glasses—one that is 75% full and another 100% full. At first, I thought to myself, “What the devil?”

The speaker explained how when our cup is 75% full, it looks and feels pretty full. We can take that cup and walk around fairly comfortably. The water can slosh a bit without spilling over.

A totally full glass, on the other hand, not only feels full, but requires us to walk around on high alert with caution. The odds for even the most deft among us are to have a spill or two on the way from one destination to another.

The water glass slide, it turns out, is about how full a Primary Care Provider’s panel should be. My mind instantly drew the relation to life.

A few slides later came one with our normal baseline heart rate at 60% of its capacity, and then the rate at 100% when we might be chased by a vicious bear.

Which really answers the question of why we have an upper limit and why meeting the gold standard for everything we do is unrealistic.

It is for the same reason we don’t keep our heart at max capacity. The limit is there for emergencies to keep us alive and afloat. It’s not an aim; it’s a safety measure.

So why do we routinely schedule the last possible flight home? Fill our week with an event every night? Or permeate our kids’ schedules with enriching activities every free possible minute?

At what point in history did we lose the knowledge that full to the brim is better than wiggle room, or you are a slacker?

Another analogy I love is what we called the “Jiggle Jar.”

The first time I saw this jar demonstration (at the top of the page) was when I began yoga teacher training. I’m sure I rolled my eyes with these fru-fru yogis demonstrating visuals like business people do. The jar is filled with water and mud. The premise is that when you are still, your mind is clear and we are able to see well. When you are running around or getting bumped from the outside, it stirs up the muck and clarity cannot exist.

Of course it makes sense. But it wasn’t until a few weeks into teacher training, when I felt a relaxed sense of mind on a regular basis, that I was unable to tolerate being riled up any longer.

I had been the frog that was initially put in tepid water and the temperature turned up so slowly that I didn’t realize it was nearly boiling. Vacillating my mind between tepid and boiling made the anxiety disorder I didn’t know I already had unleash to where I was non-functional.

Just like the frog, if you moved it from a near boiling state back to tepid water, that frog may have been quiet and happy while nearly boiling to death, but it would scream and fight once it was tossed back into immense heat from something comfortably warm.

While it was my home life that was out of control, without leaving my husband and kids in a lurch, the only control I had over my life at that time was leaving my job as a Strategic Planner and taking a part-time, lower GS pay level job.

It was the best decision I ever made.

It’s the wiggle room that makes the difference between life and death, tolerable and intolerable, sanity and insanity, and even a safe panel size for a patient and provider versus one that is at maximum capacity and bound to have accidents like water sloshing out of a cup. We don’t want those water droplets to be any patients or pieces of our providers’ state of mind.

In the jiggle jar analogy, we need to see that it’s not possible to bump into anything or anyone when we create space in our schedule—and totally related—our mind.

Wiggle room is what saves us. It should be as important, or dare I say even more important, as our most important regularly scheduled appointment.

Like the temperature gauge only someone on the outside can read as the frog’s heat is being turned up, our schedule may be the only gauge we have. We can’t walk around forever with a full cup. One false move or someone else with no wiggle room or a full cup will bump into us and inevitably create undesirable results.

If you are feeling the heat, turn it down and create space. No matter how important everything else seems, it will all be figuratively dead in the water when you are no longer around to keep it all going.

Choose wisely! Namaste.

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On Paula

I have worked in a hospital for 20 years. 99% of my work has to do with outpatient administration. I have been in the background and very much away from the inpatient floors. Those few floors are where the procedures, recoveries, and most critical health issues take place. Yet I nearly always forget I work in a hospital.

On some work calls, I hear about the inpatient statistics and infection rates of COVID. Those patients seem distant and far away. They have little to do with me. Yet on other calls where letters are anonymously shared, patients and family members have the most human experiences on those floors—experiences that are so positively impacting to their lives that they take the time to share.

While these letters cause me to smile and temporarily feel proud for working in my organization, they do not personally touch me.

Enter Paula.

Yesterday my husband and I moved a wooden flower container that was Paula’s from our deck to our small garden area behind the fence to remove the dirt.

As soon as we dumped the dirt, the entire container fell apart. Pieces of wood mixed with the dirt. I was surprised at the great condition those pieces were in. Being a self-proclaimed upcycler artist, I immediately saw beautiful pieces in which to make art on. First order of business was to make something involving Paula.

Paula used to have beautiful wildflowers in that same box. I remember her telling me in 2020 how she went to go put some seeds from a packet into the container when the wind carried the seeds right out of the packet! She thought they flew away, but a few months later, beautiful flowers appeared.

Now, like her life—some of the most raw, beautiful things such as the wildflowers are long gone, but the memories and magnificence of what was there remain.

Paula was the first neighbor I met when my husband and I bought our current house in 2016. It was a second home on the water in Branford. We had no intention of living at it for several years, so I was taken aback (in a good way!) when Paula and a host of other neighbors warmly welcomed us to the neighborhood.

Somehow every time we were here, I saw Paula. She was always around—walking, talking to neighbors, out with her happy dog Stella. Paula was in her mid-sixties and lived alone. She was FULL of life. Always smiling, laughing, joking… happy.

She often invited me over with my dog Koji to her fenced yard. Sometimes I had limited time at the house to complete work and declined her offers; other times I went there to spend time with her. In a short time, I learned about her life. She had a beautiful home that was lifted from the ground recently (flood risk), and again she was one of the happiest people I ran across regularly.

She often hosted happy hours. She held a welcome party for anyone who moved to our small community. She randomly met people on walks or in town and made connections with them and for them.

Somehow I had her cell phone, and she texted me often. She would often call to let me know about how nice my renters were, that an ambulance was on the street, or that something happened in the neighborhood we might be interested in.

I felt a part of the neighborhood even though we didn’t live there—thanks to Paula.

Extra bananas, clothes she was cleaning out, a knickknack that reminded her of me… she was often coming by with items that I may want that she didn’t need.

She dressed beautifully. Her natural hair color of nearly white looked very chic with her stylish cut. She had keys to our house and often went in to check on things while we were away. She welcomed nearly all our renters to the area. I still have dozens of comments from renters about how wonderful the area, neighbors, and particularly “that lady across the street,” Paula, was.

She was the only neighbor our children knew the name of. None of them ever lived here, but when they visited, they were sure to run into her.

I shared my blogs and stories with her. She often commented and referred to little things I wrote in daily interactions.

Based on an innocuous comment one hot summer day in July 2018, she was the very reason I realized how my PTSD was different from panic attacks. This kicked me into a three-day frenzy of large flip charts and sticky notes about the root cause as I explored a past that I was previously afraid to face.

During that time, there was a storm and we lost power. I was alone in my current home here in Branford. While I never went over to her place, Paula invited me over daily to have some salads and enjoy the comforts of her generator. I was very much involved in my little self-exploration and in a strange but cathartic despair. I knew Paula was right there if I needed anything, and that was comforting.

She came to every party we hosted with a very elaborate store-bought dish to share. She WAS the life of the party. I do remember, though, in the early months of 2019 during a party, she disappeared quite early. The next day I brought her coat that she left behind over. She would tell me she didn’t remember going home. She was drinking, so I wrote it off.

In the late summer of 2019, when we permanently packed up our Cheshire home and made the move to Branford, Paula was very excited. Yet every so often she seemed confused. It was getting to be this way for a while. I can’t say when exactly, but she wasn’t the same.

She was never the same. In 2020, the decline had taken an obviously noticeable turn. She turned 70 that year, and in the height of COVID, her brother and sister-in-law hosted a very nice outdoor party. Paula had friends staying with her from all different times in her life. My husband and I heard stories from them about Paula that were not surprising—how friendly and vibrant she was, how amazing of a friend she had been, how she lit up a room—and how the person now on her 70th birthday was only a shadow of Paula.

Now it’s 2022. Her home is empty. She is a patient that some administrator counts the beans for. She is a number. Paula is someone that providers confer about how to handle during a huddle—someone that family members will likely write a nice letter for if her care was good. A random note that someone like myself, who does background work to make such a place run, will hear about, smile for a moment, and carry on.

But what about that patient’s life? Their loved ones? The people they touched? The remnants of their possessions that used to hold such life and love—like the planter that used to adorn her lawn, which is now in pieces in my yard? Where and how does that all count?

Where do those stories and that love go?

I was a very small part of her life for a very short period of time. Thinking about Paula and these pieces of her planter (that I will absolutely turn into something beautiful) will hopefully help me to stop and think about each patient while I run thousands of beans for them in various “ways ’til Tuesday” so the administration can make data-informed decisions.

These lives count. All lives matter. We aren’t just numbers. We are amazing human experiences that make differences for the next lives that come along. The history of each one of us may not be recorded, but we make history with every last interaction of our lives—even by accident. Like the wildflowers that appeared when Paula thought they flew away. She planted something beautiful and didn’t even know it.

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Some pieces of the wood I plan to work on first are out to dry.

A set of five wooden planks arranged on a composite deck, with sunlight casting shadows, alongside a plant and a white rocking chair.